It is April…and my theme for this month is “Foolishness and Forgiveness.” This week’s topic is “Forgiving Yourself,” because if there’s a common theme I see in all of my clients, it’s the inability to forgive ourselves for past mistakes, those stupid and horrible things we did to others, those stupid and horrible things we did to ourselves. Sometimes our past mistakes include not standing up for ourselves when we needed to, or not standing up for someone else when we should have. Often times these incidents will re-occur and the feelings of guilt, shame, embarrassment, or anger will resurface, magnified and intensified, because they were never properly processed to begin with. People who haven’t fully processed their issues, often find themselves sick. The unprocessed feelings that go with these mistakes is energy, and that energy can become stuck in the body and wreak all kinds of havoc. Many of my clients have heard me read from Yvette Rose’s book, Metaphysical Anatomy. I learn about their symptoms, find the corresponding chapter, and we both discover they have unprocessed emotions which may have contributed to what they’re experiencing medically.

Ever since being diagnosed with Hashimoto’s thyroiditis, I’ve been thinking about myself differently. My world was filled with “I can’t wait to…” is not filled with “I used to…”. “I can’t wait to go to dance class” became “I used to exercise 5x a week.” “I can’t wait to go to the club” became “I can’t want to get home and stay home.” “I can’t wait to get my hair and nails done” became “I used to feel better about myself.”

In 7 weeks, we’re moving…again. After living in 2 places for about a year, we moved to our current home full-time in October. We combined two complete households back in October, thinking we had done the right thing for us...but instead, we find ourselves frustrated with our situation.

The thought of having to move all over again is daunting. But the thought of living 24/7 in a home in a poorly designed home for us is worse.